12.08.09
It’s almost impossiblefor me to think about my future.
I can’t even recognize myself right now.
I’ve always, always denied my present self.
“why is this happening?”
“why are you like this?”
“What should I do to fix it?”
How can I know what to do later when I don’t even know what do do right now?
There was one thing i wanted to do.
I wanted to fall in love normally.
I wanted to be born into a normal family, then raised as a normal boy.
Then have a normal encounter with a girl and become friends normally.
But it’s impossible for me to be normal.
I’m not normal at all.
No one is normal.
What is truely right and wrong?
Who’s there to decied on those things?
